Relax

A collection of poetry

Ok so most of this is null and void at this point, but it's still pretty darn good. I write poetry when I am feeling "open". Whether it's sorrow or joy, I have times where I just need to write. So I'm sharing some here. A couple of blog readers who have known me for a while may remember some of this, maybe not.

"Together again"

He looks at her,
with eyes of love.
she is to Him,
a gift from above.
Together again,
no tricks or lies.
Together forever,
no more goodbyes.
He takes her arm,
and leads her away.
Never to wander,
never to stray.
she smiles at Him,
and take his hand.
Trusting as He guides her,
to a new wonderous land.
A place just for them,
with happiness only.
No more tears,
they'll never be lonely.
There is now ONE,
where once there was two.
One man and one woman,
Just me, and just You.
Bound of the soul,
joined by the heart.
What's now together,
No one can part.
Our love shines true,
through the darkest of days.
Guiding us now,
and forever,
always.

"Loves Wings"

When I fell in love, it was like I'd been given wings. I could fly into the heavens. I could touch the sky. I could soar through the clouds, laughing as they tickled my face. With the love wings, I was able to fly to places I'd never seen. I could do things I never thought possible. I was an angel. Love is a precious gift. The gift of flight on loves wings is it be cherrished and used freely. Love has left my life, my wings have been forcefully ripped from my body. I wasn't allowed to land on safe ground first. The wings were ripped away in mid flight, and I fell from the sky. When I hit the ground I was broken. Now I wander the earth, a wingless angel. Forced to walk on saddened feet. Battered and bruised of spirit. Without my love wings, life is not so wonderful. I am unable to go to those beautiful places. Unable to do those wonderful things. The gift of love was taken. One day, love will come again. It will come again on wings brighter, bigger and better than the ones I had before. I will once again fly. Higher than before, and to even better places. Next time love comes, I'll be ready. I will fly up, and touch God's face. I will thank Him for my life, my love and everything that I am. Until then, I will learn to walk with grace. So that when the time comes, I can fly like an angel.

"Woman"
Straining higher,
reaching out,looking for perfection.
Grasping hands,searching gazes,
looking for perfection.

Twisting here,
turning there,
looking for perfection.

Second glances,
sofly smiling,
accepting satisfaction.

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Yeah ok, enough introspection for one night.

Funny stuff

My Mom sent this to me years ago and I thought it was funny enough to re-post here.


Gentle Thoughts For The Day

1. Birds of a feather flock together and crap on your car.
2. There's always a lot to be thankful for if you take time to look for it. For example I am sitting here thinking how nice it is that wrinkles don't hurt.
3. When I'm feeling down, I like to whistle. It makes the neighbor's dog run to the end of his chain and gag himself.
4. If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
5. Don't assume malice for what stupidity can explain.
6. A penny saved is a government oversight.
7. The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.
8. The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fat are really good friends.
9. The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a replacement.
10. He who hesitates is probably right.
11. If you think there is good in everybody, you haven't met everybody.
12. If you can smile when things go wrong, you have someone in mind to blame.
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And my "Outback Steakhouse" philosophy of the day is..."I'm honest about my weight but I've started lying about my height." Hee hee

And now the end is near

And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear, I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.
I've lived a life thats full.
I've traveled each and every highway;
And more, much more than this, I did it my way.
Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this, I did it my way.
Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!
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Thanks Frank (Sinatra). That song just seems to fit my divorce situation. I have no regrets when I look back. I did my best and made some mistakes but like Frank says, too few to mention. I loved with my whole heart, I gave all I had to give. In the end, it wasn't enough but I'm proud to know that I gave my all. So from this point forward I am going to try and stop looking back at what I've lost, and try to look forward to what lies ahead and what I may gain.

John will always be in my heart and I really wouldn't want to change that. He was my prince when I needed one. I just didn't know when I kissed the frog, that his prince status would only be temporary. So onward and upward and may we both find what we're missing.

I'm a lousy blogger

But then, I don't really get read so I suppose it doesn't matter.

Work Stuff
1) Patrol sucks. Too many people don't take me seriously. I hate that.
2) I've been in two accidents, neither my fault. The first one involved a guy taking a corner without looking and he hit me. No real damage. The second one involved a drunk who backed into me. Again no real damage. But that bites anyway because it's time out of my night which puts me behind in my patrol duties.
3) One account in a bad neighborhood just got worse. They fired the maintenance guy. This is the guy I have been calling "my stalker" because he lurked everywhere when I was there locking up and just watched me. But he used to come tell me what he thought I needed to be doing until I finally stopped being polite. Now the boss and his son (my Captain) are having to work there ARMED during the day and yet they expect me to go in at NIGHT and lock up alone. That's been fun.
4) Same account, different problem. Hispanic men who have no respect for my authority. They won't leave the hot tub area or the indoor basketball court when I ask them to so I can lock up. It can take up to 10 minutes for them to leave. Stupid assholes!
5) Different account. Senior Citizens mostly. They get drunk and then don't want to leave when it's time to close up. Assholes!

Personal Life
Geez, just don't ask. It's a non stop trainwreck.